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Thursday, April 13, 2006

im here to blog once more.im gonna tel everyone,that i'll turn bung esther..well,i cut my hair le..but hahas..yesterdae i have such a great desire wantin to turn for esther...but,all she care for is maryann,not me!!haiiss!!!veri sad.realli veri verii sad..oh no...is lyk..i read those past letters etc,i wanted so much to break down.but,i cant..cuz i noe,i will end up hurt.hais..i feel so paisehx when i see esther todae..its veri paisehx lehh..help..i see her,i wanted to blush..yet dun wan...i dunno wat i wan too!!!haiiss!!!cuz alot ppl suggest me nt to turn..im like..serious now...haiiss...
she ius the one.,..who sae to love ,me forever/.but sigh,what is this...
im sad.im seriously am...i feel like breakin down..my life seems to be gone already.haiiss.. felt like cryin,.what to do can?yesterdae i pierce my lips wha...fuckin sad lahh...but i rather let myself feel the pain,then to let my heart brk.haiiss...i felt like brekin down..this few daes..heyu what is with me?
think me n xiner is still frens le.haiiss..good ba..we talk todae...luckily ive given up.haiiss..sad..sad..sad..im realli sad.but,i dunno the reasons why.think is al abt esther?!?!?!haiiss...
sweetie,i think she veri the sad.i cant stand seein the wae her heart brk,the wae she show her broken smile.its all fake..i dun lyk to see this.i hate seein her cry,i hate seein her so sad..haiiss....im sorri.but i failed..i cant do anything...im speechles....i dunn o what is goin on in life.haiiss..
shi jie shang mei you bu hui jiao de fu mu,
zhi you bu ting hua de hai zi.=[-ive let u down.
im sorri.i shouldnt even be born.cum into this world.
i onli bring sadness to everyones life.

well,im speechless rite now,but i onli have one thing to sae.

is that,i love esther ye!

shout it out loud:

i realli do love you,

wont u be mine too?

you mean everything to me,,,

cant imagine a dae without u by my side!

ure all i ever wan!!

JOANNA LOVE ESTHER!!!!

its dated:

130406.

ilove79=]

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1:35 AM

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